sleepyhead

So tired.  While I’m feeling better from the viral thing I had all week, I’m just so tired.  I have no idea why, either.  Last time I saw the doctor, he ordered blood tests for various things.  The test came back clear for everything.

At the same time, my depression is rearing its ugly head.  There are a few things going on at the moment which may be exacerbating my stress and causing it to play up.  We’re renovating one unit, and trying to find tenants for another.  Work is beyond belief in terms of how much stuff I have on my plate.  At home, our place is messy, needs a good clean, and it feels like it’s two steps forward, three steps back.  With all this going on, all I want to do is sleep for twenty hours a day.  Mmmm, sleep.

Today I actually felt other depression symptoms happening – mainly anxiety, feeling sick in the stomach from nerves (stress manifestation), and wanting to cry.  Not being able to read, as I couldn’t follow a train of thought.  Not being able to do simple stuff, like get up and take washing off the line.  Feeling overwhelmed.  I did feel better after a long afternoon nap of 4 hours, but I need to keep an eye on things.  Today reminded me how fragile my mental health really is – hanging by a thread.